R.I.P. - Resting in the Present
In 2009 I was recording my 2nd studio album - Zer0 & 1ne. The day it was getting mixed and mastered, my brother and I went to visit my grandmother at her convalescent home. I had a funny feeling about the album - a feeling you get when you know something is just not quite finished. I had a melody running in my head, but wasn't sure why a melody kept playing over and over in my mind. Afterall, my album was done - a new song was the last thing I wanted. I put my dissatisfaction of the album aside, and walked into the room where my grandmother was staying. In the last 2 years, you never quite knew which side of her you would get - the alert one, the talkative one, the stubborn one, or the funny one :-). This time, we got an extremely alert and reflective side of her. It was the woman we knew while growing up - bright, profound, witty, and stubborn. Even though her stubbornness would often times drive me crazy, I appreciated this the most about her. Her stubbornness meant that she was willing to remain unmoved when others imposed their way on her. Her stubbornness meant that she would outlive most of her peers and every one of her immediate family members. Her stubbornness meant that she believed in what she believed - and no one was going to tell her otherwise. Her stubbornness was sometimes offensive - because your emotional response to her never quite swayed her.
I love you mammamah - may you rest in peace, and may we all live in peace in your honor. God Bless you.